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Day 5   Leave a comment

Wise woman… right…
New responsibilities and different obligations are mounting with trying to organize the new job. I’m so very stressed. On top of that, my health is not great at the moment which makes anxiety level soar. I was in a lot of pain today and had to take quite a strong medicine. Half a day lost…

I’m pretty sure I would benefit in my current situation from having a healthy dietary regime.

Oh, wait, I did introduce one practical thing today. I’d noticed I wasn’t drinking enough. As a result, I feel tired or sometimes my brain interprets it as hunger rather than thirst, and I grab something quick to eat (unhealthy option, of course, because it’s easier and faster…). So I decided to make a note of each glass/cup of liquid I drink.
The ‘tool’ I’ve ‘designed’ for keeping track of quantity drunk, is a piece of paper stuck to a cupboard door. I mark each glass of water or cup of tea/coffee drunk (water – good, coffee – not so good).
Not much but at least it’s something.

I also read a chapter from ‘Made To Crave’. I’m 2 days behind with the reading but will get there :). I was only able to open the book at bedtime, when the painkillers started to really work. I read Chapter 2, ‘Replacing My Cravings’ where Lysa asks the ‘raw question’… It is rather shocking when you admit that you love and rely on food more than God. Well, of course, not all the time – that would be really sad. But yes, it sometimes looks like I do. Sometimes it looks like I believe that eating a certain food will make me feel happy or less stressed.

I really want to turn to God for comfort and peace instead. This chapter says that I need to pray whenever I feel tempted to seek solution in food. Prayer is a way of ‘tearing down the tower of impossibility’ when we feel trapped in this cycle of defeat.

I was really touched by Lysa’s example prayers. They’re so honest and they show how we can trust our Lord with even seemingly trivial problems. I particularly like the one where she admits before God to her particular food craving at the moment but is making a choice to eat a healthy, nutritious breakfast instead. She’s making a choice to celebrate what she can have rather than lamenting over the ‘forbidden fruit’.

Yes, it’s all about making the right, conscious and educated choices, isn’t it.


Day 2   Leave a comment

Today I re-read Introduction: Finding Your “Want To” and Chapter 1: What’s Really Going On Here? of the book that accompanies me on my 21-day journey, Made To Crave by Lysa TerKeurst.

I was successful at losing quite a lot of weight and growing closer to God in the process (or the other way around) some six months ago. Some of the weight has returned so I need to take care of that – I felt so much better physically those nine pounds ago. More importantly, though, I need to refocus from thinking about my weight and appearance to fixing my gaze on God. I want Him to be the object of my desire and the source of my self-worth. Like Lysa,  I am “a simple Jesus girl on a journey to finding deeper motivation than just  a number on my scale for getting and staying healthy”.

This is about good stewardship (looking after the good and amazing body that God gave me), wisdom and making good use of my free will. I have freedom to make good choices. That includes food choices, choosing my thoughts, making a deliberate effort to exercise.

The first two days of the journey that I’m documenting here have been a kind of warm-up. I haven’t yet planned out my diet or exercise routine for the next 3 weeks (and beyond). I didn’t have any disastrous episodes with food yesterday or today but I wasn’t eating to well, either. I had a lot of outdoor physical activity (a 6-hour hike in the woods on Saturday and a walk with a very active 2-year old today) which I feel very good about.

I don’t want to obsess about my weight or food, or exercise. Rather, I wish to focus more on God and look to His Word rather than elsewhere, to find satisfaction. ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’ (Matthew 4:4, NIV)

Tomorrow I’d like to make  a plan regarding the practical choices that I’m going to make during the following weeks. That includes my Bible study plan, diet and exercise.