Day 6   1 comment

I woke up feeling much better than yesterday – the painkillers I took at bedtime had worked. So, a good start šŸ™‚ Another rather hectic day, though, with trying to organize work and catching up on tasks which I was unable to complete yesterday.

On the habit formation front, I’m still making a note of how many coffees/teas vs glasses of water I drink throughout the day.

Unfortunately, I did not make time to read another chapter from ‘Made To Crave’ so I’m even more behind now. Not good and quite demoralizing, really.

On my way home I felt so cold (yes, summer’s is officially over) that I started having obsessive thoughts about ordering a pizza. I’ve noticed this destructive pattern of craving pizza when I’m very tired/cold/have a reason to celebrate. What makes it especially unhealthy and dangerous is that I usually will have the whole pizza for myself. I also tend to want to finish it all in one evening… I’m very embarrassed admitting this now but it’s… well, true šŸ˜¦

I didn’t get the pizza tonight. I wish I could report that I chose to pray, as per yesterday’s lesson, to overcome the temptation. However, instead of asking God to save me from the unhealthy craving, I was ‘saved’ by circumstances. I was determined to call a restaurant or get a frozen pizza, but, fortunately for me, all pizza parlors in the area were closed already and so were the shops (it was very late in the evening). Yes, I did not eat the pizza. But it wasn’t a spiritual victory, and this is what I’m really after.

Apologies to you, dear reader, for the negative tone of this post. I’m simply trying to be honest with myself about my struggle and where I’m at.


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